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A Million Little Pieces Of My Mind


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Here I've organized the pages by general interests, such as music or politics. I've also taken your interests in mind, dear reader; so here you'll also find an entry into specific series, like my Truck Driving Journal or my Alien Abduction diary.

About Me

By: Paul S. Cilwa Page Views: 14403
My personal life…don't read about it if you don't want to know about it!

I've been married to a woman and to men (at different times); been a father to four and a grandfather to five (so far). I've been a radio DJ, a sailor, a truck driver, an instructor, a ditch-digger (for one day—that was enough), a computer programmer and a writer. Oh, and an actor and a lifeguard—and an aficionado of camping and whitewater rafting. I've visited almost twenty countries (again, so far), and been in an alien spacecraft. I've gone from being a Catholic to exploring various religions until finding that "spiritual, not religious" works best for me.

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About My Family

By: Paul S. Cilwa Topics: #Family #Geneaology Page Views: 7297
Stories and photos of my family, the Cilwas, both ancestors and descendants.

Family is the most important thing to me, and I have been blessed with a family that is, to put it simply, so amazing that your own life will become better just for knowing about them.

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Aging Gratefully

By: Paul S. Cilwa Occurred: 3/6/2022
Topics: #AgingGratefully Page Views: 190
One man's experience of hitting his seventies.

Starting with my coming out of the closet, I've made my life an open book on these pages. It may seem self-serving, but that's not actually the reason I keep it up. The first reason is to give my grandkids an insight into how it was to live and grow up in the 20th Century and the opening decades of the 21st. The second is to reach out to folks who may be going through some of the things I have, and who could benefit from reading that they aren't in this all alone, after all. So, now that I've started into my seventies, and since I have concluded my Coronavirus blog, I've created this new section of web site, where I plan to complain about aches and pains but also about my triumphs and overcomings of my age-related health.

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Alien Abductions

By: Paul S. Cilwa Topics: #UFOs #AlienAbductions #Nibiru #Enki Page Views: 8136
The story of one man's life-long contacts with non-humans.

Several years ago I developed an intense interest in UFOs, which you could say started when a friend and I witnessed one. Or, you could say it started earlier than that, when I researched so-called UFO abductions for a novel I was writing. Or, you could say it started even earlier than that…

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By: Paul S. Cilwa Page Views: 6382
Here you'll find essays, free online courses and utilities gleaned from my decades as a systems analyst and corporate trainer.

When I was a kid, the technology of the day—radio, television, phonographs—was simple enough to understand that it could be explained to me, as a child, and I could understand the principles. Not because I'm so smart, but because those technologies were that basic. Nowadays, however, things have changed. The televisions of my childhood were easy to understand; today, they aren't even all that easy to use!

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Life in the Time of Coronavirus

By: Paul S. Cilwa Topics: #Health #Coronavius #Maui Page Views: 1792
Hunkering down in paradise.

Was it a Chinese plot? Was the Illuminati behind it? Did utterly incompetent leadership make it worse? The answers to these questions are irrelevant, because we've got it, it's here, and the population of the Earth is spending a few weeks or months or years "hunkering down", isolating ourselves to slow the spread of the new coronavirus, COVID-19.

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By: Paul S. Cilwa Page Views: 5864
Essays on health, medicine, and living optimally.

Most people worry about their health, at least to some extent. And I'm no exception. However, I have actually stumbled on some amazing discoveries regarding how to actually lose excess weight and keep it off; how to cure cancer and infectious diseases…and my conclusions, which I have personally tested, often contradict what commercial medicine insists is true.

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Various essays on interesting facets of history.

Despite it's not being my best subject in school, after I got out of high school I discovered I actually had an interest in history. Every now and then I learn some interesting fact or about some interesting person, and write about it; and you'll find those essays here.

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A guide to my metaphysical interests and essays on same.

Is money really the root of all evil? If so…who planted that root? The evidence is that aliens did it…and, yes, there really is evidence, in the form of thousands of written documents left by them and the people they enslaved. See Were The Ancient 'Gods' Extraterrestrials? for details. You'll find these essays in this section.

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By: Paul S. Cilwa Topics: #Music Page Views: 11501
All about the music I make, listen to, and love.

Music is my life, or at least its backdrop—and sometimes its foreground as well… I enjoy composing, performing and recording music. I also enjoy playing it, attending concerts where it's played, and collecting odd and interesting pieces of music. …and this is the the section where you may explore it with me.

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By: Paul S. Cilwa Page Views: 5119
Some photos I've taken in which the photo is more significant than the subject.

I've been fascinated by photography from the time I first learned to flinch from a flashbulb. One day when I was eight years old, I stumbled upon our family's Brownie flash camera and, heart pounding, snuck to the door of the house—somehow, I knew I would not need a flash for outdoor photography—opened it, and snapped a quick shot of the giant oak tree across the driveway, before furtively returning the device back from where I'd found it. There were only 12 shots per roll in those days but it was still months before my mom finally took the last picture and dropped the film off at the drugstore to be processed. When she got the prints back a few days later—there it was! A picture that I had taken by my very own self!

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By: Paul S. Cilwa Page Views: 3086
Photos and essays describing the many trips I've made and awesome things I've seen.

There aren't many things I'd rather do than get up and go somewhere! But taking pictures while I'm there, and writing about it later, come a close second and third, respectively. My fourth favorite thing (in the travel realm)? Why, reading about places! If that describes you, as well, then you are in for a treat.

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Various essays of mine with a political angle. Because politics is hilarious!

People, as the venerable Art Linkletter used to say, are funny. And they are never funnier than when arguing. Consequently, few things strike me as more hilarious than politicians lying about things that are easily validated, and their followers believing those lies despite personal experience to the contrary. So here are a few essays I've written on the subject…!

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Random Thoughts

By: Paul S. Cilwa Page Views: 982
All my posts that don't fit into any other subject.

It's hard to believe, but this website—which I created in 1997— has actually been around longer than the word "blog". During my most recent (2015) reorganization of the site, most of the blog posts fit into some specific subject (Alien Abductions, Autobiography, Music, Places, etc.) but a few don't; and you'll find them gathered here.

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Here you'll find various essays on scientific topics.

Science is a systematic enterprise that builds and organizes knowledge in the form of testable explanations and predictions about the universe.In an older and closely related meaning, "science" also refers to this body of knowledge itself, of the type that can be rationally explained and reliably applied. Ever since classical antiquity, science as a type of knowledge has been closely linked to philosophy. In the West during the early modern period the words "science" and "philosophy of nature" were sometimes used interchangeably, and until the 19th century natural philosophy (which is today called "natural science") was considered a branch of philosophy.

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Truck Drivin' Journal

By: Paul S. Cilwa Topics: #18-Wheeler #TruckDriving #BigRigs #Schneider #TruckDriver Page Views: 10151
Alternate Roads

When I was employed as a corporate trainer, I flew to strange cities—sometimes in foreign countries—,usually rented a car and had to find my hotel and the location of the training facility, usually in the dark, tired from my flight, and without benefit of a GPS system (not yet available to drivers). This was actually pretty stressful. And, as I was driving to the hotel, I would sometimes pass big rigs and look up at the drivers and think, "Now, there's a stress-free job!"

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Explore the technical and fictional worlds of Paul S. Cilwa!

I'm luckier than the above-quoted Dorothy Parker: I love writing. I love it enough that when I'm burning through something that inspires me, I have been known to write long into the early hours of the morning. And I'm fortunate also that, even in the days before the Internet, when everyone who can type has a voice, I was able to get most everything I've written published.

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